I wonder what would happen if I wasn't here. Would anybody care? I know my friends and my mom would, along with all of my extended family. My brother might even care. I don't think my dad would though. He never seemed interested in what I have to say and it's annoying. All he ever says to me is, "Would you shut up?". He is never going to change.
I don't think he ever said I LOVE YOU to me at all. I say it to him every night before he goes to work and all he responds with is, "Yup." followed by a burp or a fart. I hate that he never says it back to me.
Emilia, I struggle with my father's lack of affection all the time. I've also talked to people about their fathers who have the same problem. I honestly couldn't tell you why they don't say those simple words, but I can tell you that they still feel them. Your father does love you. If he didn't, he wouldn't have a roof over your head. He wouldn't work everyday to pay the bills. He wouldn't spend all the time he does coaching and helping you at softball.
ReplyDeleteSome people don't know how to express love. It's rough, but it happens. I'm sorry it is that way with your father, but don't ever let it question how much it would pain him to lose you.
I would care if you died, very much so. I know many people that would care. You don't get second chances with life, so please enjoy all that you have now and know that you are loved by many including your father!