I just read one of my best friend's blog. She encouraged me to become brave enough to write about all of my thoughts and emotions on this blog. I don't know if I will be able to write in detail, but I'm gonna try. So her I go:
Today, I woke up with a thought. I wanted to run. Run away from all my problems and fears. People who know me think that I'm not afraid of anything, but it's the complete opposite. There is so many things that I'm afraid to do. I've been able to overcome some of my fears because I had support from my friends. I keep thinking that I can do anything as long as somebody else does it with me and so far that's true. I'm afriad of what I won't be able to do without the support of my friends.
What if I can't do this? How can I go through with this? What can I do to help? Who is going to be hurt if I don't do thid? Where am I going to go if I can't pull through? When can I just scream in frustration without having anyone see me? Why can;t I fgure this out?
All these questions pop into my head when I have to do something. I can't find the will power to pull through anything without help. I hate not being able to do things I'm not comfortable doing without some kind of help.
I guess in time, I will be able to do things on my own. Only time will tell.
I always wish to run from my fears, my issues, my life. It's tempting, but it will never solve your problems.
ReplyDeleteFears are something that will get at you all your life. It doesn't mean you won't overcome them though. You will.
You'll be able to do it alone someday, but the great thing is- you'll always have loved ones for the days you can't.
: )
You're so right. And I know I can count on you for some of those days.
ReplyDeleteThe saying, "Fears come and go, but your friends stay forever." is completely right. You're one of my best friends and I know I can count on you. And one day, I'll be able to face my fears alone!